silence

if wishes could ever come true..... *sigh*

i don't know what to say right now. i'm home alone right now, my mom, grandma, uncle, and aunt went to an outlet in Smithfield, Miguel is in school, and i'm here in this silence. now a couple of years ago, maybe this silence would have driven me insane, but now, silence and i can coexist. in fact, silence usually speaks some gentleness and peace to my heart....

so there's this complete silence in my house, right?
silence allows me to focus on other things than the noise out there. I start listening to little things I never noticed.

i shall now practice silence. of the mind, the heart, my mouth, my eyes.... i shall become a person who radiates a peaceful silence.
don't be upset about silence, it's not the absence of noise, but the substance of introspection. it's the substance of growth.

[feeling pain and suffering is not the lack of happiness, but the prelude to deeper sensitivity and renewal. pain and suffering are a awakening to development, an open door to greater freedom, a way to ask for healing and being restored, being built from scratch. i hope you know this. i hope your faith can carry you through tough times with grace. i hope you don't take all the burden on you, because i'm open to sharing pain. i hope you know that. and i hope mourning won't take the best of you, but instead, through mourning you can become even cleaner and stronger.... all things work out for the best (trust me)...... don't fall, you were meant to rise]