truth

and i’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
and i’ve been locked inside that house
all the while You hold the key
and i’ve been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me
and even though there’s no way of knowing where to go
i promise i’m going

because i got to get out of here
i’m stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
i got to get out of here
and i’m begging You
(i’m begging You)
i’m begging You to be my escape

i fought You for so long
i should have let You win
oh, how we regret those things we do
and all I was trying to do
was save my own skin...
oh, but so were You...
so were You
-- Be my escape, Relient K...


i love the very end phrase--- all i was trying to do was save my own skin, but so were You....

people get so confused. they think God is judgemental, they think God is against them. they close themselves, they think that their guilt is how God feels about them.

don't you see? God has never stopped loving you, and He never ever will.


people get so confused, they think hell is God saying I don't want you anymore. God never says that! He's constantly after our hearts, trying to fulfill us, trying to give us perfect love (i shall emphasize-- PERFECT LOVE)... He sacrificed everything He had for us, because He wants us soooo badly. He's madly in love with you, can't you see? think about it, is there anyone you want so badly you would give up absolutely everything for? well God did that for you. He wants you mroe tahn you want anything else....

so what is hell?

hell is our choosing to stay away. think of it in human terms... think of God as a person. ok, so God is chasing after you, He leaves you notes, He leaves you messages in your answering machine. He e-mails you, He puts notes on your locker, front door, car.... He's chasing after you deperately, He loves you that much. He desires you like no one else ever will. and you can respond in two ways:

you can fall in love with Him... you can see how much He wants you, and how happy He makes you... you can admit to yourself, God fulfills me... or at least say, hey He pursues me so much i will give Him a try. I want to know about this abundant perfect love He says He has for me.

OR

you can say.... i don't want you. i want so and so. or not right now, i have homework. or you can be apathetic. eh... God? not so hot. Billy's hotter. but you'll be left with this empty pain inside, and you'll try to fill it with ther things. and the more you avoid God, the more you avoid what He has in store for you, the darker you become. that's hell.... your choice of separating yourself from God. it's not God saying i don't want you, it's you saying i don't want God. i don't want to love. i don't want to know about goodness....



Jesus doesn't provide a magic happy bubble. i think some people perceive me as insanely optimistic, as insane and unrealistic. that's ok. you can perceive me any way yuo want to. truth is, God is still chasing you, and no matter if i say it or not, no matter if i want to or not, it's the truth. I will not deny what is truth.... sure, the world hurts, sure there's chaos, there's mass destruction, but that's not from God. God is pure goodness.... even more than nutella! even more than your favorite music, or rain, or the beach.




thought i might tell you the truth.