softer and kinder

yep!

to think there's so much beauty in this world blows my mind away. to think all patience brings such a wonderful priceless gift in its hands. to think i see a glimpse of eternity when i look into those deep blues....

so now what?

faith. struggles and strains await. but my hope rests in a higher Power to do His will. i pray for protection and freedom. ha it sounds contradictory, but it really isn't.

you know how funny and ironic life is?
ok. this is how funny and ironic life is--- that the guy who declared himself mad at God has pointed me back to God and His will, that He would ask me to seek His wise counsel, that he is a loudspeaker for God in my life. sometimes in the little things (such as encouraging words) sometimes in just being there and reassuring me. i'm a needy girl.... i'm hard work... i wish i wasn't. but somehow he sees what God wants him to see and loves me for that. he sees me through God's eyes. (*astonished*)

wait wait... i'll repeat...

he sees me through God's eyes. (*astonished AND speechless*)

and you know, this blog isn't to bring you down (if you haven't found a significant other YET) it's a word of encouragement. i've been there. i beared the "pain" of being single differently at different times, and quite honestly-- it was until i gave up looking that i found who i was looking for. it was until i was content with being single, content with just being with God that i began to see things deeper. it is all true. there is someone out there, and God will guide you to him/her and God will protect that relationship.

i'm not 100% sure that Stephen is it, but there's a lot of good coming out of our relationship. tests of faith and motivation for spiritual growth. love makes you a little kinder and a little softer too. anyhow. love to you my friends, patience, courage, faith, and i'll repeat it---- patience. Patience seems never-ending and pointless, but it's ohhhhhh so very worth every single second of it.