indifference no more.

i finally remember something i wanted to write here.
yesterday i watched a show in TVE (Television Española) (tv from Spain) ... it was a documententary of the immigrants' plight. it was just about the saddest show i've seen in a long time. when people think of immigration they think of people invading the U.S. with odd customs, or taking of jobs, or whatever. This show was from a European country that is a little less biased than say a Mexican or an American view on it. so it showed people. and i think people forget that immigrants are people too. no one wants to leave their home, def. not immigrants. i didn't want to leave Mexico. I understood Mexican culture, customs, language, way of life. i didn't want to leave Mexico. i had family and friends. in the U.S? no one at all. no friends, no family. we entered through Madison Wisconsin. the weather was extremely different. i had never before been to a public school, esp. not an American one. the food is different. everything is. so when people are like "go back, you dirty (insert name of your preferred nationality here)" i want to say, it's not like i didn't want to stay there.... so what made us move? my dad worked 2 jobs in Mexico, and he couldn't afford my brother and my school. why not a public school? because well, public school is only the most ordinary and basic education, if you want to be ahead, you need to go to a private school, or else, your whole life you'll play catch up.

so anyhow. my point? the show shows that people want more than just work to survive. they want to provide their children with better opportunities. i'm studyng graphic design, and i've been taught that if you love something, and you work really really hard at it, you have no other choice but to succeed. it might take time, and a lot (A LOT) of hard work, but you are destined to succeed. i believe that because i saw my dad work 2 jobs as a salesman and barely make it through. then he started back at computer programming which was his passion. we had to live in the closest place to hell on earth-- Juarez (Chihuahua) and we made it through (thanks be to God) we moved to Madison WI and we found so much peace there. my dad was happy working there, and for everything his coworkers complained my dad was grateful. they hadn't been through what he had been through. we moved here and then he moved to Guam but through it all--- he does what he likes best, and we have a nice house and comfortable living because of it. the peak of it all was his boss last year gave him a whole month paid vacation and we went to Europe (my mom had always wanted to go back, i always had wanted to go) and it was everything i ever dreamed it would be. would my dad had succeeded had he not taken us out of Mexico? i don't know. and i never will, he chose to risk it and come to the U.S. i'm grateful he took the risk and i'm grateful God helped us through. hard work will always reap. i've never seen a case where it doesn't. effort will always be prized. anyhow! back to the immigrants. when you look into an immigrant's eyes you will find a load of dreams, a load of hardships. people stomp on them, and they don't give up. companies ABUSE them and they keep on going with hope and will power. they want to provide a brighter future to their children. i don't see anything wrong with that. i wish people could understand we are all human and we are all trying to make our dreams come true.

i wish people RESPECTED at least the very basic human rights and stopped exploiting third world countries. until then, i will do my share, and i will seek a way of helping and reaching out to my brothers and sisters, the children of God, whose voices and faces i may not see but i KNOW that they still exist. i know God loves them the same that He loves me and He loves the people dearest to me. blessed are those who hunger and thirst for they will be satisfied. amen. (let it be.) may God keep them and may He open my eyes to see them, may i not be indifferent to their cries or pleas, may i not support the tyranny that opresses them through my own indifference. may i not be a tyrant too. i pray you won't be indifferent either... it is a long quest, maybe an impossible one, but i will try it. i have hope for a better world, because God is a God of hope, and whoever says "that's the way things are" or "there will always be evil in the world" has failed to ahve a higher hope in God, has failed to fight with all that is within them. sure there will always be evil in the world, but whose side are you on? you can choose to hear the cry of the poor, or ignore it and live your life in blissful indifference and through that process become the evil of the world.

i'm sick of you, and i refuse to be one of you. indifference no more.