thankful for a sting

sadness is sometimes good.... there's beauty in a sting in the heart...

think of a vaccination. it stings, but prevents bunches of diseases. no one ever stops to thank God for pain, but i do today. thank you that i have such a blessing that it hurts. and knowing my pain is only ephemeral compared to the blessing Stephen is for me, then, i'm joyful in my suffering. he left, my mom and Miguel left (to go somewhere), and in the silence i could hear my heart ache. it wasn't like a deep cut, it was just this little sting, and i looked up at God and said-- "You know, i don't want to cry.... i know it's in Your plan." and He responded (gently and lovingly), "if it hurts, you can cry, I'm here for you." so i cried a little, because it stings a little. but i found comfort in Him and knowing He understood perfectly.

i love God.