God as an artist!

My dad and uncle leave today to go back to Guam yet with another company. I get to see Stephen this thursday. I get to go to Mexico next weekend. I get to be home alone with Miguel a week after that. then my mom will come back with my uncle, aunt, and grandma. It's a non-stop fluctuation of people! (my house is!) well i guess i ought to be happy about that....

as for my regular life-- well.... i've thought some things out yesterday. a girl's shirt def. spoke to me it said "2 Cor. 5: (something) we walk by faith and not by sight..." and i really needed that. i have faith that God's plan will be carried out, not because of the abilities of people, not because of my own desires, but because God has an infinite plan, eternal knowledge, undending love, a mysterious Spirit, and perfect timing. I have to trust and believe in that. That's my reason for living. I have no reason to believe God will not carry out His plan. He's always been faithful, and He always will be, because that's His nature-- He's all goodness. How can i choose myself over Him? I can't. when i face Him my heart melts. I become putty. and He molds me into His image. Oh how beautifully everything works out! :) last night we sung out... and i mean this:
"Jesus You are my best friend
You will always be
and nothing will ever change that"

i understand i'm human, i mess up. but how can i say no to Him? He's my reason, my all in all. I'm me because of Him. Without Him i'd be some bitter hateful vengeful person. I really believe that. I read in the book of Wisdom something so beautiful:
Wisdom 13:1
For all men were by nature foolish who were in ignorance of God, and who from the good things seen did not succeed in knowing him who is, and from studying the works did not discern the artisan;

as an artist i can appreciate this statement. First of all, because well... comparing God to an artist makes me feel a little more important. then I thought how true it is! we see His works, and we don't stop to say-- I see Your hand in this. thank you. how blind are we? we see the beauty, we see little miracles happen, and we don't say "surey God is great! allelluia." why are we losing ourselves in what is visible when visible things are merely ephimeral and made of dust? it's like giving credit to the painting instead of the artist. like saying "waterlillies holds life" NO! wait-- waterlillies holds life because Monet is amazing and could make it resemble life. yet waterlillies does NOT hold life. we remember Monet. we study Monet. i mean, we study techniques and colors and everything in waterlillies, but we acknowledge waterlillies wasn't self-created. it's only a piece of canvas, and some paint. whether you like that painting or not doesn't matter, what matters is that Monet was a great artist and is known as such. is such with God-- He fills us with life, He blesses us and we just see the blessings and what is visible. But what about the awesome force that made it happen? what about the perfect artist who planned the perfect composition with all elements of art? You see this-- even as comparing God to an artist we need to remember God is bigger than any artist-- His artwork is perfectly pleasing. perfection is not from this earth, and so it's hard to think about it.
anyhow... i gotta go do lots of things! among them photography, c.a., art history, and french and math. oh yeah.... and be thankful. :) God is wonderful.