bittersweet

well... first of all-- check out this song-- ("everything" by lighthouse)
find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life
to my soul
you are my purpose
you're everything

and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?
(yeah)

you calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?
'cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
and how can I stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you?
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this?

oh yeah... beautiful song... if you guys are wondering ????? what the crap? i guess i'll have a little explaining--

yesterday for some odd reason i played the song in complete darkness... and i recalled how full of God i felt a night in the mission trip...
fullness is not something you experience everyday.. i know i've been sorta out there, it's like i can't concentrate in prayer.... i can't hear God's voice.... i'm going through another spiritual dryness period...
praise God! when times like this pass, i have to keep in mind God is here with me, i have to remember is a test of faith and hope. He's never left me before, why should I start doubting today?AND if God finds me suitable for a test that means I'm walking forward! YAY! :-D
Luke 1:46-55
And Mary said: "My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord;
my spirit rejoices in God my savior.
For he has looked upon his handmaid's lowliness; behold, from now on will all ages call me blessed.
The Mighty One has done great things for me, and holy is his name.
His mercy is from age to age to those who fear him.
He has shown might with his arm, dispersed the arrogant of mind and heart.
He has thrown down the rulers from their thrones but lifted up the lowly.
The hungry he has filled with good things; the rich he has sent away empty.
He has helped Israel his servant, remembering his mercy,
according to his promise to our fathers, to Abraham and to his descendants forever."

i love that passage, Mary's so awesome! :-D