my baby-- Joao

yes-- my love child with theresa... HAHAHAHA! His name is Joao and i got his information on the mail today (we're sponsoring a child through World Vision)....

my mom suggested this though--- since he has a Portuguese name, and he's black, he should be my child and Alexandre Pires (Brazilian singer)... i laughed and agreed.... (i hope Theresa's not jealous ;)

well.. today i went to target with my mom... she needed to get out of the house and "exercise" which means, let's go walk at some store.... hehe... so we went to Kroger and Target... at Target we spent about hmmm... i would say form 30 to 45 minutes in the baby's section. YES the baby's section. well.. 2 of my cousins happen to have infant children... who also happen to be girls... and who's addicted to infant girl's clothing other than my mom?

wait... maybe i am too. i love babies. I love their clothes. i love their smell (unless they need a diaper change) i love their noises and the way their eyes look. i think babies are the most awesome way to start a human being. :) vulnerable and innocent. small and cute. delicate, beautiful, pure. new.

i've been thinking a lot about my own children... first of all-- if i have a child, i hope my first born will be a girl. being that my mom has so much liking for infant girl's clothes, it would be no surprise to me that she'll buy the whole store and then if I have a boy, it'll be like 8 months past the return for refund date and she'll have to pawn her car. :-P no but seriously.....
kids... wow.... it's awlays been my dream... and yet it always seemed far away, distant, unreachable.... and now... i don't know... it seems like it's nto so far away... nto so distant. it seems like it could be a reality in a couple of years. get married, have children. then i thought of my future husband, holding our little baby, (a wedding ring in his finger of course) and saying "isn't this the most beautiful girl/boy you've ever seen?" oh yeah.... major maternal instintics kicking in. maybe it's joao's fault.... maybe i'm in love.... maybe my age is finally reaching my brain! i don't know... i just know my future is not that far away.... and it feels pretty exciting to be honest! :-D