i wasn't prepared

oh, when the day is blue i'll sit here wondering about you and how the pollen fell all around your face in strange yellow patterns but, i wasn't prepared for this oh, i wasn't prepared for this when the morning came the bees flew down and wrapped themselves around me and that's when i spoke the word to have them trace your face for me in pollen but, i wasn't prepared for this oh, i wasn't prepared for this come, come back to me, my, my darling come, come back to me, my, my darling i wasn't prepared for this oh, i wasn't prepared for this when the day is blue i'll sit here wondering about you

great song by eisley... i have it stuck in my head... it's great

there's those people that make you feel stupid and ugly and you think
"he's soo hiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh! like cleopatra, joan of arc, or aphrodite...." (lol... i know the song says she...)

then there's those people... they're your friends... you care about them, they care about you... all of a sudden, you realize they make you feel smart and pretty... they just do, magically. so you start wanting to make them feel smart and beautiful... and it all starts as a joke, then it grows uncontrollably into something you never meant to happen.... then you're terrfied... all of a sudden, you hold his heart in your hands, and you realize it's not your place... not just yet... why?

well... you care too much... if it was a stranger you could break their heart and keep on walking, but being that you are friends and you actually care about the person, you can't just take it lightly... maybe it's all a matter of loneliness and youth... or a matter of seeing the inner most beauty of a person, and when a human sees that radiation that comes from the soul the person wants to keep it to her/himself. i don't know...

all i know is that he's still very much an enigma to me, as well as something well known... all i know is that time and space solves lots of problems, all i know is that i've given up on trying to figure it out... it's gonna solve itself out, by the wondrous miracle of time... God has someone for me, whether is this person or someone else, time space, God and the guy will tell....